STUDIO MICHELLE BERNARD

Shakti Gawain wrote Creative Visualization, a remarkable little book that gave birth to the whole law of attraction child!

I read it when I was about 28.  My Saturn Returns was simply horrible. During that tunnel through darkness, I wrote poetry on the floor of my Los Angeles apartment trying to forgive myself for living a wandering adult life. 

I deeply felt life was punishing me for being an artist,

accusing me for continually desiring new palates,

shaking a finger at my operation to shape and sculpt new experiences because

monotony bored my senses.

With the right college degrees and wherewithal to manage, train, and supervise, why did I voluntarily seek a life path that promised instability, that guaranteed uncertainty?

 

The tone of my journals keep indicating my unresolved obsession with that same question every 10 years.  Now at 47, I face another internal and external rumbling for change.

I’ll have to create a pathway to a land of dreams using my tools:  faith and art.

I must let myself

be.

Let go of ideals and losses.  Be who I am.

In retrospect of the 47 years of fear and curiosity, life is as life does, meanwhile

I have created a me I like and trust.

This year, I have been helped into a better acceptance of knowing myself with support from these pieces of art.

The War of Art, Steven Pressfield – Confronts the courage to create

#Girlboss, Sophia Amorusa   Tells how she created a lucrative business with only a-being-herself business plan.

Big Magic, Elizabeth Gilbert – Reflects on creating: the acknowledgement and acceptance

re-reading The Artist’s Way – Navigates the way the artist unlocks creation

The Motivation Manifesto, Brandon Burhard – Strong call to action: spend deliberate time and energy interacting with living!

 

plus

30 days to write yourself alive  –  an online writing course with Andrea Balt

and

listening to stories from my courageous girlfriends – not naming them, obviously, but insert your people here…

 

So, to the liberated art (artists) – THANK YOU  for showing me myself

by showing yourself

 

Stepping into more, here’s to the wild future – 2016.

 

 

thanks for reading today,

michelle bernard

http://www.sculptedbybernard.com